You Are The Emperor

You are an authority figure, and other people look to you for what to do.You are strong and powerful. Crossing you is not a good idea.You have worked hard to get to your position, and you're not about to give it up to anyone.Though you have a warrior heart, you are gentle to those who treat you well. Your fortune: In the near future, you need to be willing and able to defend those you love.This may be the time for you to step up and be the authority figure to those around you.It is time for you to be independent, to become your own person.You may need to look at your relationship with your father, or your relationships as a father.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Power Level is: 84%

You have all the tools you need to be a success - both professionally and personally. You'll probably go beyond reaching your goals. You'll change the world (at least a little).

How Powerful Are You?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are. Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

JANUARY - Stubborn. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Never looks at people's flaws or weaknesses. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tense. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Loving and loyal. Loves children. Has great social abilities. Money cautious, can budget successfully.

FEBRUARY - Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH - Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decor. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL - Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY - Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE - Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite. Has lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitates, tends to put things off.. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Makes friends easily. Shows character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Easily bored. Fussy and stubborn. Seldom shows emotions.Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious.

JULY - Fun to be with. Secretive. Sometimes, difficult to understand. Quiet unless excited or tense. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation for hard work. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly, but not always approachable. Emotionally temperamental. Moody and easily hurt. Witty. Not mean or revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and illogical things. Sensitive and forms friendships carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Broods about the past and misses old friends. Quiet, homey person.. Has difficulty making new friends. Prone to having dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST - Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER - Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Stubborn. Quiet. Uncomfortable if have to talk to a group. Calm. Sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Secretive. Loves
sports and leisure. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships.

OCTOBER - Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Sexy. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making new friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Day dreamer. Loyal. Opinionated. Does not care what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance, Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Honest, does not pretend. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER - Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to keep big secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough! . Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions.

DECEMBER - Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short-tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.
Logical.
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Yep. That pretty much tells it as it is. Although there are degrees, those characteristics are dead on for me. Pass it on and see if the descriptions fit you. ^_^

What Kind of Lover am I?

The Romantic Lover 63% partner focus, 76% aggressiveness, 50% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that: You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own. This places you in the Lover Style of: The Romantic Lover. The Romantic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is the hallmark of young love--the Romantic Lover often loves the idea of being in love, and being a wonderful lover, and so they try to bring their prospective partners every bit of joy or happiness that they can. They are the serenaders, and the ones to rent carriages in the park or take a gondola ride down a canal. The Romantic Lover is a treasure to find, though they sometimes are prone to being hurt if their advances are ignored or harshly rebuffed. In terms of physical love, the Romantic Lover can seem shy, but usually it is simply a by-product of wanting to be perfect for their lover, and often needs some extra encouragement and re-assurance to truly feel at ease. Given a special, intimate evening, and the right lover, the Romantic Lover can be a delight in bed. Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Classic Lover (most of all) or the Suave Lover, or the Exotic Lover. Congratulations! If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following: Nerds, Geeks & Dorks Professional Wrestling Buffy the Vampire Slayer America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 68% on partner focus You scored higher than 91% on aggressiveness You scored higher than 33% on adventurousness

Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW...

I really should update this blog more... and apologies to my visitors... all 3... no, 4 of you. Times have been tough and right now I just feel...



A little piece I did in homage to Ger's 'Wasted' series.

Gerry... if you're reading this... I want to do an addendum to Wasted. I'm really going to have to release all this pent up frustration before I actually wreak havoc instead of shooting virtual people in games. ;-p

Which dragon Are you?

You are a white dragon, pure and noble, you would
help humans if they desprately need you. YOu
are kind and wise with a heart of gold.


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Hearts...Ah well...

Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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The Interview game! (Patent Pending)

Dean Alfar has an interview game up at his blog where you can ask him to interview you in 5 questions and you would answer in your blog. You would then allow others to ask you to interview them with 5 questions specially geared for them. Official Intervew Game instructions at the bottom of this post.

Though Dean started the game, I discovered it on my friend Gerry Alanguilan's blog . I figure he'd know me better so i asked him for the questions. It's fun and you discover itsy bits about yourself. Try it some time.

Thanks for sparing the time Ger! Here's my answers:
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1. If you are going to be stranded on a desert island and you can only bring 5 books to read, books that you *havent* read yet, which books will you bring? And why?

Tough one... lots of books I want to read but never had the time (or kwarta, heh) to read. If it had to be only five, they would be, in no particular order:

- The War manual of Sun Tzu - made by a General/Philosopher, any of the principles within can be applied not merely for war but other life situations that may come your way.

- Stranger in a Strange Land - Aside from the allegory of being an alien in a different land, it's a great examination about how man can be influenced by his upbringing, for good or ill.

- The Sword of Shannara - eclipsed by the LoTR trilogy, this is the second most influential work of modern fantasy.

- Don Quixote - touted by many as the 'greatest' novel ever about the beliefs of an aged and senile old knight who would not give up. Inspired the song "The Impossible Dream".

- The Complete Idiot's guides (technically one book on different stuff)- so I have handy reference on anything from cooking to survival (I am in the desert, alone and only books with me, no?) ^_^

2. Liliw is a nice place to live, but if you had a choice and you had the means to do so, where would you rather live?

Tagaytay. Love the view, near enough to both beach resorts and cityscapes, and lots of things to do.

3. What is the greatest piece of art you have ever seen?

Pieta. Nothing can drive me to awe like it. It is a painting and a sculpture; melding the divine (Christ) with genuine human passion (A Mother cradling his son).

4. If you had a time machine and you can go anywhere in time, where and when will you go? Why?

Lots of eras I'd want to visit. 6000 B.C.(studies say this is when God created Adam), 588 BC( so I can find out how the Buddha really achieved enlightnement), 326 BC(Alexander and Porus' battle must've been better than the movie), 0 A.D. (I want to see if the original manger really is THAT bad), 33 AD (for obvious reasons), 13-16th century(When Shaolin was at its peak!), 1521(So I can take pics of Lapu-lapu whupping Magellan ass) and so on.

But If I were being honest, and for personal reasons, I'd go back to the early 1990's; it's a bit selfish, but I'd change quite a few things so they turn out better (probably unraveling reality, but hey, that's a risk I'm willing to take)

5. If extraterrestrial aliens were real, what do you expect them to look like and behave?

Physically, I believe they'll be humanoid. Walking on 2 feet, hands for tactile manipulation, head above torso, peripheral vision, etc. Superficial differences to humans likely, with a few adaptations based on environment, but generally not too far off.

Behavior is a different matter. If these 'aliens' have developed and harnessed the power to traverse interstellar distances, then they'd be far more enlightened or war-like than the average human. The extremes stem from the motivation: discovery or conquest.

So there are my 5 questions and answers. Here are The Official Interview Game Rules:

1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying “interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person’s will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Poverty sucks!

I hate being poor.

Yes, I know, everybody dislikes, despises and downright detests any lower-than-acceptable living conditions... but being below the poverty-line radar is an all-together different experience.

I hate it, too, when people patronize, when they themselves haven't had half, nay, a tenth of what you go through each day.

It's not simply a state of living, it's a state of mind as well as being. No one wants to be poor... but you simply can't wish it away... nor simply turn your back on it. You can't simply say, "F@#k this! I'm going to stop being broke and move up my standard of living". And the sad, inescapable truth is even if you work hard, stick to a budget, and save as much as you can, you'll still be piss-poor.

I mean sure, you have control of your life and how you want to go through it... but if it were that simple, who the f@#k would be poor today?? Certainly not me. I've been working most of my life and I'm still stuck in the rut. Fact is, things are worse now than they were 3 years ago... funny considering I was promoted and make more than I did 2 YEARS AGO! Of course, that's not much of a stretch... P184.20 per day is below minimum wage in the Metro... but out here, that's the norm.

And here, I work for the GOVERNMENT... I mean you'd think working for the "good of the people" would get you big bucks. I had to learn the hard way, after 5 years of toiling, that you have to be CORRUPT to make the dough.

Well, I'm not going to be that... SHOVE THAT MONEY UP YOUR ASS, YOU CORRUPT BASTARDS (Yes, that means you, too PGMA, you b!*#h!).

That's why I'm trying to get out ASAP... because each day I stay, is a day doing something "bad" becomes acceptable to my mind. It's hard to stick to your ideals when your stomach is growling while your peers are sipping Chocolate lates' and texting on their 6810's.

What makes it harder for me is I've got a family to support. No, I haven't married (who's stupid enough to get hitched with an idealistic buffoon like me these days?) and I haven't fathered any litter (haven't even used the tool in the shed, heh.) though I may as well be. My parents are unemployed, unproductive and swamped with debt. I have a younger sister who's in high school. I have a dear aunt who needs better medical treatment. AND I MAKE P184.20 A DAY!!

I don't even know how I cope each passing day. But I must be doing something right.

Just not right enough.

Not enough to rise from this state... because it's not just me. It's the environment... it's the society... it's the world.

The availability of better jobs, the rising and falling of prices, all the problems stemming from the lowest recesses of the slums to the higest echelons of the 'alta sociedad'. Those are beyond my hands.

"Look on the bright side..."

"It could be worse..."

"Have faith..."

Those words, I hear time and again. And they don't help one bit. All it does is make people like me resent those better off... because they're the only ones who can actually say such things. Those who've seen and been in the trenches know better. It's hell and anyone who's gone through it or living it deserves more respect than condescending words from people thankful they're not in the same pit.

I particularly distaste the last statement: "Have Faith".

Eff that! If it was up to God, who gets billions of prayers, text and e-mail every friggin second, He'd change things in a heartbeat. I would, and certainly God's a LOT more understanding and merciful than me. But why are the manipulative-diabolic-masterminds counting tons of moolah and living like kings?

Sure, there's hope... a number of us actually make it out the other end and are living life to the fullest... they're the lucky ones. Yes, lady luck has a lot to do with it... with recognition to the hardwork and perseverance those blessed few put in. If it happened to everybody who "works hard" then nobody'd be poor.

This is not to say, I and my ilk should give up and just lie down and die. Heavens no. The things we go through, the hardships and sacrifices, that's what makes us 10 times better men/women than the next guy/gal will ever be. But that doesn't mean we have to like it either.

As for you, be thankful you've got a better deal in life. There's a whole bunch of people who will never know the joys you take for granted...

Kal-El??

A god among gods, you keep your power in check. You
are Superman, and thus, the world's biggest
boyscout. Compelled to serve truth and justice,
you try and protect all of existence with no
thought to yourself. If you only were a bit
more pro-active, rather than reactive, with
your great power you could do great things.


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Apollo eh?

Apollo


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Emperor?!? Me?!?

You are the Emperor card. The Emperor leads the way
into the world that The Empress allowed us to
experience. He is the archetype of the Father
who provides the organization and structure of
the world. The Emperor is the government, and
as such represents control. At this stage in
The Fool's Journey, there is no need to deviate
from the status quo. By participating actively
in society, we come to an understanding of
social structure. The Emperor applies the laws
and rules for us to follow. The Emperor is the
first of the zodiacal attributions in the major
arcana. He shares with Aries a creative energy
and, at his best, responsibility for the
subjects in his charge. At his worst he can
become domineering and authoritarian. Image
from: http://emperor.sierra.fr/fr/


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In the beginning...

I had never had the inclination to post personal stuff on the 'net for all the world to see because... THEY'RE PERSONAL STUFF!

I had never been open with what's inside. Close friends refer to me as being stoic... or rather "stoic takes a whole new level with you." a friend of mine once said. The 'strong,silent-type".

Truth be told, I don't consider myself to be a strong person. There were quite a number of times I remember when my knees buckled and I had to suppress the urge to just curl up and surrender to the whims of fate in the face of overwhelming physical and emotional stress.

But I persevered. I held on to the beliefs inculcated by a lifetime's worth of experience and wisdom passed on to me (love you Nanay Roga!). I held on to the belief that, yes, life will go on. Yes, there's hope. Yes, there is a God (or Buddha, or Allah, or whatever you want to call HIM). Yes, we can make the world a better place if you just believe.

So then, here it is: an account of my personal (and not-so-personal) "stuff"... which can range from the sublime to the absurd... for friends, old and new, and for those who might happen by.

Welcome to my world! ^_^